It’s been a while hey since I’ve been here. I almost forgot that I had this space to pour all my thoughts on.
Today I am 32 and 3 months old (Birthday 26 October). Totally random I know. But still a fact.
The past few week has been pretty interesting. It was filled with happiness, shock, anger, sadness, jealousy and possibly every other emotion that I can’t remember. It’s all part of being a woman right?
How I got through it the Lord only knows, but what I have learnt is that Joy comes in the morning. Well not the next morning, but in the near future to be exact.
Have you ever been so angry that you just go numb? You refuse to feel anything, so numb you just get through the day with drowning yourself in work so that you do not feel any hurt, pain or disappointment?
But then … then it hits you, the truth. The bloody hurtful truth. (Yoh!)
That is the moment, everything you thought you could suppress just comes out, all at once. It crushes outer walls you put up for so many days, your dreams, but God knows, it puts things into perspective. That’s the beauty of pursuing your happiness in life is that you will only learn with every disappointment.
They say that
“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear”
Things will make sense once you allow the hurt to leave your heart. No one in this world should be allowed to crush your soul, no one in this world should be allowed to use you, no one in this world should be allowed to mess with your feelings and what you have built up after years, No one.
But sadly, they will.
One of my main regrets in life is giving considerable thought to inconsiderable people. Life is tough. But so are you.
Just never forget to pursue your true happiness. All day, everyday. With every breath, with every tear, with every heartbeat.